Its been 3 weeks. Exactly. To the t. I arrived in this room three Sundays ago at 3:30 pm.
Within a few days, I was comfortable. Actually, I was comfortable within 2 days. A comfy room, malls n theatres around, transportation to work taken care of, positive reaction from office...naturally I was! Then I got to Manila better...the eat, drink, shop and be merry culture...and I became more comfortable. Life became better as I made two good friends, P and Al, cheerful, articulate souls who engaged me and were good hosts. Interesting sightseeing trips, good evening-outs. Active weekends, pleasant weekdays. Chatty conversations and rambling chats. Absorbing books and mixed movies. Lots of avenues for shopping.
So...even though things will slow down after the initial hyperactivity...life seems ok for the coming weeks.
Except (and there's always that word, isnt it??)....except that I miss the comfort of close ones..I am worried that there's still scope for the assignment to be called ineffective...I long for the independence of my own apartment and my own car...I am scared of what this will do to us, to the core.
So, as I act, as I move, as I smile, as I explore....I think and I fear and I worry and I speculate.
But then, as L says, its only the tears and pangs that make the smile worthwhile.
Only I hope there's a smile at the end :)
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