Love is all around/Love just aint enough

Maybe it's my overdramatic persona or maybe its actually the way it happens with me - these times of intense contradictions at the same time. On one side, a new relationship with an adorable baby intensifies, setting me up for intense joy and pain in the future. As I enjoy and absorb these moments, I am also forced to finally acknowledge that another relationship with an "adored one", equally significant to my mind, is on the road to nowhere. There's a line in Cider House Rules - "Sometimes love just aint enough"

like a ferris wheel

For several months, things have been pretty ok. Naturally there were things that irritated....frustrating moments....sometimes anger, sometimes confusion...but all part of normal life. At a fundamental level, things were ok for some time...and at the back of my mind, I knew that like bad times, good times dont last either.

Well, here comes the lower end of the ride. Anger at rating, irritation with boss, disenchantment with work, despair at house, lowness at the indefinite postponement of Anjan's move, worry at financials....all mix to make daily life quite, quite stressful. I have gone back to a time about 1-1.5 yrs ago...always high strung, easily irritable, a little self absorbed, prone to making errors.

Hopefully this self awareness and some practicality will lift me out of these times soon. More than that, am counting on Bobo to do so! As long as he remains ok of course...