I look into the mirror warily, for I am nearly certain of what I will see there. And sure enough, I do. The curtain, the doubt, the reluctance to meet eyes, the hesitant smile.
Most of the seven sins lurk. The root is temptation. To give in to the need of the moment, the rest be damned. Where’s the much-famed, much-touted value system? Where’s the much-famed, much-touted work ethic? And that much-famed, much-touted “respect”?
Like a dog, I worked. Collected what I need. Built love. Won trust. And, like a dog, I undid. The pillars within, fell. Or did they? Let me not give up hope. The pillars shake; their foundations are mired in shadow. Strength is what I will use now. To hold, stabilize and continue building.
I do ask myself why. But I have no patience to search for the answer. I do feel. But I have no time to. This is reality. I will act. I need to. Else I will have to cover the mirror with a black cloth. Hide from myself. The world.