i wonder why i find it irritating that the past week has been so mixed?? thats natural, isnt it...considering the mad roller coasters that we are all perched on? then why this compelling need to find patterns and themes?
anyway, my moods/thoughts/emotions itself have oscillated between happiness/wistfulness/discomfort/introspection/worry/irritation/anger/amusement/cynicism/optimism all this week. no wonder i have a sense of feeling tired....but yes, i admit, a sense of being alive too.
i think the way i have used so many words with slashes in the previous paragraphs is a shameful testimonial to my fast declining writing capabilities. posts on other blogs that i read- bridalbeer, divigate, simplesimon - make me blush with their control of imagery, flow of thoughts and perspectives. and here i am, sinking deeper and deeper into the quicksand of corporate mediocrity.
how many times will i use the word "quicksand"?????? aaaaarrrrrghhhhh!!! i am not only irritated with a lot of other people, most recent being vicky and lakshmi (talk about disparate external locii of control!) but with myself too.
i shall forward to a weekend of books, movies and card parties. note, not conversations. i dont think i want to discuss all of this...mainly because i dont think it makes a shit of a difference to anyone anymore.
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